| love.............kills |
[May. 26th, 2004|10:32 pm] |
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| | contemplating | ] |
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| | reach the sky - this sadness alone | ] |
hey everyone out there on the world wide web. tonight i was talking to meg, and she told me something that deeply saddened me. she said that it took away the meaning of the phrase, when i told her that "i love her" too many times. and i agree completely with her, because it's something that should only be said if you really mean it and if it's going to be true for a long time, which i hope it will be. and i am way bummed now cause i know that i have to improve on that area. so.....i'm gonna go read like 50 pages in my book and then sleep on what we talked about tonight. if anyone has relationship/love reconciliation ideas, post them. goodnight from the heart of utah. |
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| dell computers suck |
[May. 24th, 2004|08:40 am] |
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| |  exhausted | ] |
| [ | music |
| | turtles - happy together | ] |
so....umm...i liked scott's update on my journal. i think it's funny how he updates mine but doesn't update his own. i will most likely be in california the night of the 18th, so if anyone wants to do anything that night just post a comment, and we'll get together. |
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| huh? |
[May. 20th, 2004|09:13 am] |
i'm gettin sick of school but who isn't right?
more details later |
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| wake me up before you go-go |
[May. 19th, 2004|10:48 pm] |
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| | sore | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Alicia Keys - If I Ain't Got You | ] |
ok.......i don't care what anyone else thinks about my music taste. i know i'm supposed to be all anarco-punk hardcore east bay. but ya, i think a lot of musicians are very talented. just look at what i'm listening to.........(look up). some of the songs i'm downloaded in the past week are the following:
1) Alicia Keys - If I Ain't Got You
2) Frankie Goes to Hollywood - Relax
3) Octepex - Prancemacabre
4) Wham - Wake Me Up Before You Go-Go
5) M.I.R.V. - ATF
6) Dynamite Hack - Boyz In Da Hood
7) NoFx - Whoops I OD'd
8) Slick Shoes - My Ignorance
9) Antifreeze - She'll Learn
10) The Briggs - Third World War
11) Alkaline Trio - Goodbye Forever
so there..........no more 100% punk for me. plus all this variety is giving me musical inspiration.
"white people die"
-pablo francisco |
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| you're never ever ever there |
[May. 18th, 2004|06:15 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | disappointed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | cake - never there | ] |
so.......the reason i moved to utah is that my mom was offered a job at IHC for more pay, and everything is like 1/4 cheaper here, so it's like they were doubling her salary, so she thought it was "good for us". there have been many pros, like meg and all of my new friends that care about me, but there's only one thing that i miss........and it's really hard for me. being away from my best friend scott........and my band is the hardest part about living here in utah. it's just that i enjoy being around him more than anyone else, and we hung out almost everyday literally, for 3 years. i spent more time at his house than i did at my dad's. it was my sanctuary when people annoyed me or when something happened. but now i have no where to go, and i upsets me a lot, and quite often
and i'm unhappy that the band that scott and i started 3 years ago is getting popular and progressing and writing better music, and i'll never be a part of that again. and it was a once in a lifetime thing cause there will never be a group of guys like that again, and they're my best friends. it's not like i only hung out with them at band practices, i slept there on school nights sometimes, and went on vacations with them........almost every single one. his dad would invite me on jet-ski trips, taught me how to ride, and all that good stuff. he also taught me more than my own dad has, like how to build things, organization the most, and the quality of treatin people nicely, and they'll do the same to you. and i felt very honored when i went to his grandpa's funeral. and to his grandma's house in seattle, and she treated me like her grandson, and i just feel like packing up and moving back when i realize that i can never do that again. i know that after 3 years i can move back, but still....people will change, i might want to stay here, and it was just a very bad time to move. i was already in high school, then had to be demoted back to junior high once i got here since its only a 3-year high school. i am being absolutely honest when i say that if i had the chance to stay there i would in an instant....meg, don't worry, i won't have the chance. you're the only thing keeping me here, and i love you for that. for making this whole experience a positive thing. you are my first girlfriend and i want to hold on to you for as long as i can. i will love you forever, like you for always.....here in my arms, my baby you'll be. |
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| excel sucks |
[May. 18th, 2004|08:49 am] |
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hey, i'm in computer tech class right now. and ummmmm it's boring cause my teacher always gives me half credit on everything. yet i know how to work everything. no one cares but it's my journal so deal with it. my teacher is really retarded though. she uses stupid clip art graphics on thre powerpoint presentations we did. and now she's even putting them in our excel spreadsheets. lame. i was talkin to scott last night, and he sent me all of the new songs. i told him that i didn't enjoy them very much cause i'm kinda picky about music. i don't think he liked my comments very much, so now they're re-recording this weekend. i feel like a jerk cause he has a bit different taste than i do, but from the stand-point of the corporate world here in utah i just thought that they could do much much better on consistency and rhythmn. no offense scott. i really didn't mean it. sorry. and now i am realizing that no one reads this so i'm gonna shut up now and actually do mY STUFF, BYE |
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| my days are numbered |
[May. 16th, 2004|11:30 pm] |
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| | against me - a breif but triumphant intermission | ] |
i am sitting here, doing lame things like talking to zeke and julie. ummmm.......i just feel like updating this but i have nothing to write about. i just finished les miserables, and it was an ok movie. ummm i'm tired now so i'm gonna leave. bye. i love meg |
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| hunkered down in the duldrums |
[May. 15th, 2004|12:20 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  tired | ] |
| [ | music |
| | alkaline trio - another innocent girl | ] |
last night was absolutely amazing. i had so many opportunities to be a gentleman around meg......and i took them. then we got back to her house, and shared a blanket on the ground while we watched a movie with her sister and her friend, annie. i swear she fell asleep for a little while. but overall, the night was amazing, and i am very lonely now, because she's in timpanogas, and then has to go to a bachelorette party. NO MEG AND ALL WORK, MAKES TOM A DULL BOY. |
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| individual trays of custard |
[May. 13th, 2004|08:38 am] |
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ummmmmm....ok. i was thinking to myself a few days ago, that it is so boring in utah that i haven't done anything productive in the past 7 months. i was talking to scott on the phone the other day and he's tellin me all the things that he has to do this week. he's recording bands, finishing his own cd, having to write vocals, play a show on the 12th at school, and all of his homework on top of that. and honestly, i'm very jealous. all i do is homework and then play on the computer and complete nothing. i could never have those opportunities here in utah, and honestly, once again, i really wish i lived in california, back with scott. don't worry meg, i still love you. |
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| breifcases |
[May. 11th, 2004|09:54 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  stressed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | bouncing souls - born free | ] |
i got my guitar yesterday. i know that no one reads this so i'm just gonna go off on a tangent and talk to myself. um......i can't wait to come out to california in june, but there is a very integral part of living here in utah, and "her" name is meg. she's amazing. i am gonna miss her this summer, but i hope she'll wait for me and not run off with some cool football player. |
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| in a bind |
[Apr. 18th, 2004|09:17 pm] |
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today was okay. got up, went to church, and ate bacon. i had a perdicament with some math but i just went for a walk to let off some steam. a very special person has helped me all the way through all my trials and i'd like to thank her for her wisdom and understanding. i love you meg. |
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